Momma has the BLUES :(

WELL. I feel like all the sudden the rug has been pulled out from underneathe me.  Not that I should at all be surprised, since I KNEW one day this would come. I just didn't ever think it through that TWO BIG milestones for BOTH of my babies would happen within a month of each other!!!

I am really not "sad".  Just a little torn.

Evan starts 5year old kindergarten in ONE week. He is SO excited and I have NO doubts he will do perfectly fine.  I remember when he started 3 year old kindergarten...we got to the school and I had spent all morning preparing myself for the tears he would shed as he was forced into his classroom unwillingly.  That is how it played out in my head and of course it broke my heart. I just knew I would have to pull him back to me and  just forget all about school time!  But, that brave little 3 year old boy, walked up those stairs so proud to be a "school"!  He went straight into his class and we found his seat and he hugged me and told me i could go home! As wonderful as this was it kinda broke my heart that he didn't need me quite as much as he did in my head!!!!  LOL!!!  He had an amazing year and did just as well the following year in 4yr old kindergarten. He never shed a tear and never missed a beat!

I know he will be the same way in 5year old kindergarten. He is such a friendly, social child. He genuinely cares about what other people are feeling and sets out to do good and please others.  This makes me so happy as a parent because it reaffirms that I am raising a well-mannered child.  Oh how I just wish the days would slow down. I know that all too soon elementary school will be over and he will be entering jr high and high school, going through those TEENAGE years, then of course out of the house and of to college! I know I know, we will cross those bridges once we get there, but with every milestone, its hard not to forsee the future ones. I know his future will be bright and successful. He is an amazing child full of spunk, energy, with a gentleness thats a comfort to all who meet him.  He is my heart.

ON TO THE NEXT HEARTBREAK....LOL

A few weeks after Evan goes to "big school", little Miss Ella Caroline gets to celebrate a milestone of her own! She turns 3 years old on September 18! Here's a few things going on with her: She is definitely  at that stage where she is NOT a baby anymore but not quite a big kid...LOL she is finding her own way of doing things and becoming a lot more vocal in what she likes and doesn't like (imagine that). She loves her momma to death but she is def a daddy's girl. She loves playing with her brother and most of the time they play very well together, until he has something she thinks she needs!  ha! She is almost completely potty-trained! She starts Ballet at the end of August and she is extremely excited about that! She is a terrific little dancer.  She has also been doing a few pageants of the course of the past year. She has WON two of the past 3 pageants she has been in! She was even crowned 2010 Tiny Miss East Central MS last year and got to compete in the State Pageant in Vicksburg this past July.  She loves being outside. She likes to ride the tractor with her PePaw. She likes visiting withe her Nannie and Papa and shopping with her Nannie!
Back to Birthday- it's so fun to watch her grow and become a little lady! She has such a wonderful personality. She is definitely my mischievious child. She's the one who when its all the sudden quiet you know something is WRONG. HA!

I love my babies so much I just can't even fathom the days when they are not little anymore or when they are out of the house! I hope they will always want to be close to their daddy and me.  They will never ever know how much they mean to us and how incredibly unconditionally they are loved!

I LOVE YOU EVAN MICHAEL and ELLA CAROLINE! More than ALL the STARS!

~MoM